music

i'm writing this piece for school and i started by writing about music. it was interesting that upon reflection, i found that the experience that i thought was more than i could stand was one of the best parts about being a musician.

dear kl,
thank you for forcing me to be in your orchestra. i might kick myself for saying this but i really enjoyed it. more than evergreen. i hated sitting in hard chairs because i apparently don't have the right butt muscles (long story)...but it was worth it. it's going in a college app essay if it fits.

sincerely, isa


3 days until birthday :)

materialism

I've been thinking a lot about all of the things I own and what really makes me happy.
Yesterday I finally went to rehearsal for our concerto concerts coming up. I hadn't really been excited about going, because I was feeling a little bitter over past events, but there is something magic about music that makes me happy. I had to sit next to a great cellist and he was a bit intimidating, but making music with other people is liberating. It's like sensory explosion sometimes.

Although I'm a clothes horse, I'm also planning on forgoing my usual spending habits on clothes and saving up for a camera instead. The one I have right now is really my father's, so I don't have access to it all the time. And while I love my film camera, sometimes I need the satisfaction of knowing I got the shot that I wanted. So I'm going to be putting aside some of my allowance to save for that, especially since I'm going to be traveling a lot next year!

So no more new clothes for a while, I'll just work with all the amazing materials I have already. I want to spend more time being with people and spending money on experiences instead of having the latest trend. I feel like I've been locked in my house for days and I need to get away, have more adventures, do something with my life.